I am wearing my 7 knot love anklet right now, I have been burning candles in my room for love, I carried my love bottle for the past few days...

Last night I prayed that the Gods would see it fit to send love it to my life...

After a point, the prayer broke into begging.

Please, if this doesn't work out I think I might lose hope all together and that terrifies me.

If I'm single for another year, I can't even imagine what state I'll be in.

Even now, after only 2 years, I know that I have become closed off.

After 3... I can't really consider that.

I will continue to pray. And, if I get a new lighter, I will burn more candles. I'm not taking off my anklet and I'll carry the bottle so long as I have pockets that day.

And all I can ask is :

"please, I need this right now more than anyone knows. I need to be looked at as something special because I can't even recall what that's like. Please, I have gotten so lonely. I just need to have someone who cares about me that I can care about equally. "