"How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well"

• I have to constantly and consistently lie to my parents about who I am and what I believe as well as what I'm doing with my life. Then, I have to lie to the people I'm doing it with about if my family knows. I can only hope that someday I can be completely honest with everyone and be able to be proud of myself.
• When my ex boyfriend told me today about how much he had fucked up again, it broke my heart. I wanted to scream and at the same time I wanted to go to him. Every time we talk it hurts me to know that he hates me and I'll never be the one he tells these things to first.
• I am so fucking tired of being single that I sit next next to the guy in my history class instead of Britt on the rare chance that something might happen between us. I don't even think I'm attracted to him and he seems dumb. It's pathetic.
• I am equally terrified and desirous about moving out.